Yes, here I am…again: Change.
During this transitional time I am asking plenty of questions & making lots of Self & not-self observations; coupled with an out-of-the-blue recall of repressed premonitions, & an altered sense in the flow of Time.
I am asking questions because I know I can say YES!
And I will continue to ponder; taking an inventory of all my inner voices, noticing both the content of what they say, & the tone with which they say it. Some of them may be chatty & others menacing; some blaring & others shy; some nagging or needy, & others calm & insightful.
Today I welcome & invite all the voices in my head to come into the spotlight of my alert heart with mindful devotion. I ask them to step forward & reveal their agendas.
I am imagining that my life is a detective story. The goal is to solve not only the crime, the original sin – the missed mark – but to also solve the mystery of why we are here together – now at this special time on earth. I face myself in you. I wrestle with how to shine up the mirror, & with how to forgive – I pray for grace, so that we can help each other carry out the special mission we’ve come to accomplish.
I am always finding clues. I am not one to sleepwalk thru the world, which is annoying to those who like to sleep in. The alarm is ringing & I am fated to be a first responder. And yet alas, I have had knee jerk reactions to the tricks that the gods use to goad us toward our Higher Self.
Right now it feels like one of those phases when hot leads, fresh evidence & opportunities, are popping up all over the place, convincing me beyond the shadow of a doubt that spirituality & intuition are the fundamental properties of our collective reality.
I have faith that thru dedicated inner work & a pinch of cosmic intervention, a sad or bad or mad story I have conjured will get tweaked in a poignant plot turn. Just as I’m getting ready to give into my regrets, an X-factor will appear, transforming the meaning of a series of frustrating events. This may not generate a neat happy ending, since I know life is a process, & every ending is a new beginning, but it will at least result in an interesting & redemptive epiphany.
What is the precise nature of that X-factor? Who is dealing me that wild card? Is the Joker a Fool or a psychopomp?
Perhaps another secret truth will be revealed, or some missing evidence will arrive, or a mental block will crumble, or a soul will be redeemed…?
And yes, I have already had an inspiration about how valuable my ‘problem’ actually is. I am reminded of Jung’s formula, which says we don’t so much solve our difficulties, as we outgrow them. We add capacities & experiences that eventually make us greater than our problems.
Here’s to insightful growth & creative Change!
XOX ~hag
RUDOLF STEINER’S CALENDAR OF THE SOUL
translated (with added titles) by Roy Sadler
LAMMASTIDE II (last week)
Can I Imagine My Soul’s Need?
v18
Can I make wide my soul
that she unite with seed
of Cosmic Word conceived?
I feel my foresight asking me
to find the strangth my soul will need
to form her spirit garment worthily.
LAMMASTIDE III – FEAST OF THE ASSUMPTION (this week)
May Memory Awaken My Self
v19
Mysteriously to sheathe
my life’s new seed with memory
be now my striving’s further aim
that strengthening it shall awake
my inner power to become
my real self.
These are the last two verses before next week’s threshold death verse: a conscious death in the physical world becoming a Resurrection into the Spiritual World… and these are the mirror verses, the first two after the 2nd threshold death verse, v33, calling for Earth Resurrection in Human Self-creation. (v18 & 35 are the only question verses, appropriatly placed, leading to and arising from the verses adjacent to death.)
ADVENT I
My Newly Risen Selfhood’s Wonder
v34
Mysteriously to feel
with newly risen sense of who I am
old treasure re-enlivening in me
shall rouse a tide of cosmic forces
that pouring into my endeavour for the world
will in becoming print me into that which Is.
ADVENT II
Can True Being Inspire Me?
v35
Can I absorb true being
that it may find itself anew
within my soul’s creative urge?
I feel a power trusting me
to make my Self with modesty
a member of the Cosmic Self.
Vidarmas – A new Festival for the new Archangel of our Time
Spiritual Science gives us the opportunity to work with the Cycle of the Year as a modern path of Initiation into the New Mysteries. In our striving we not only renew, but we are being called from the future to co-create entirely new Festivals.
Having received insights from Are Thoresen at the Rudolf Steiner Branch in Chicago this weekend, we are taking up our own research into the new Archangel Vidar, who stands as Guardian to the Threshold of the Etheric Realm opening the Northern Stream of Initiation to those who would approach with Christ Consciousness. In a recent spiritual experience, Are Thoresen suggested that August 20th may be the Feast Day of Vidar..?
All are invited to join us, where ever you are, in reading a lecture by Rudolf Steiner which brings to life this new Archangel Vidar. We welcome your feedback as to whether or not August 20th resonates as a new Feast Day that we might call Vidarmas.
THE MISSION OF FOLK-SOULS, GA 121, Lecture XI, 17 June 1910, Christiania https://rsarchive.org/Lectures/19100617p01.html.
Meeting in-person at the Rudolf Steiner Branch in Chicago or wherever you are
20 August 2022, at 5 pm PT / 6 pm MT / 7 pm CT / 8 pm PT
~Hazel Archer-Ginsberg,
Events & Festivals Coordinator for the Rudolf Steiner Branch, Chicago
