Dear friends & karmic goads –

It’s difficult to really Know Thyself. It’s even harder to have the clarity & discerment to find the right words to describe yourself to another. And then there are the impressions others have of us. Impressions which are often colored by past karma, antipathies & sympathies – & what they see reflected in the mirror of themselves.

What is true for me, might not be true for you. And then of course it’s all in how we react to their reaction…

I often ask myself: What is more important, our manners or our intentions? Are we our confessions, or our ideals? What if our deeds haven’t fruited, can we still claim the harvest?

It’s difficult to stand up to the standards of others. Our karma sometimes gives us slack, & sometimes it’s the rope that hangs us. 

Let me take a moment to introduce myself & make this disclaimer: I currently working as a synthesizer – I am a collage maker – a collector – a compiler – a connect-the-dots kind of gal. I hunt & gather & make soup. I transform what was, into what is, & practice to manifest what will be. I have the soul & imagination of a mystic, yet I have learned to keep my feet on the ground – thoroughly engaged in my will forces to get things done.

The world-wide-web is my ocean, & I am a sponge. I am often the barometer flapping in the wind, gauging the current weather patterns. Yep even the canary in the mine shaft; or the sibyl picking up the gestalt of the age.

I think about that Steiner quote (which I can’t site, sorry) where he talks about how someone unconsciously sees the headline & talks about it like it was his own thought. Mind you Steiner tells us we must always strive to be conscious. I admit a lot of times I open myself to what the little birdy whispers in my ear, not always paying attention to where the idea came from, & this can get me in trouble, opening me to not so beautiful forces, or running the risk of overstepping boundaries.

On the good days I know it’s the angels, or the beloved dead, leading me here or there, or speaking thru me; & I feel divinely led to make connections where none were seen before. And from that sometimes I am actually graced with innovative ways of thinking.

But yeah sometimes I am just regurgitating what I am striving to understand by putting it out in front of myself.

I am not a scholar. I am woefully inept at siting references, or notating the bibliography. And I have been seeing more & more how hurtful that can be. I certainly don’t like it when someone takes ‘my’ ideas without giving me credit.

I rely heavily on the Rudolf Steiner Archives of which I pay a monthly donation. I scour all the Wiki’s. I am on FB, where I have met amazing artists who generously let me share their work. I also search google images, & use earthsky.org or skyandtelescope.org for the foundation of my Star Speaking.

Besides my own life experiences, the collective human story influences me – I particularly love the archetypes, fairytales, & all ancient myths & legends.

I am very keen to what’s ‘in the air’ – seeds broadcast out from the spiritual world. I have found many times in my life that I ‘come up with an idea’ that 3 other people have also been thinking about. This can feel uncomfortable, but I am learning to see that it really doesn’t matter who actualizes them as long as these seeds become manifest & are able to bear fruit.  

I don’t monetize anything I do, but some folks do, & why shouldn’t they get credit for their intellectual property; or paid for what they do? Most days I am fine with offering unpaid community service, but then at other times I resent it, because some folks think that just because I’m not getting paid it means I’m not working, or that my time isn’t valuable. But that will never stop me from wanting to share.

I am a big fan of the public domain & make use of it daily. But there is a fine line between ‘fair use’, ‘open source’, ‘creative commons’ & copyright laws.

My journal is like a jigsaw puzzle where I keep the pieces I have collected along the way. A string of words here, a half remembered story there, an overheard fragment, a piece of coal that I tie together with a lump of sand & the view from my window that day to make my POD…etc.

But then recently thru my often uncomfortable karmic relationships I was admonished for using the definition of a word without crediting the source. This led them to search for other breaches. And then they shared their distrust with another, who told me it was like taking a painting by Rembrandt, adding a few flowers to it & claiming credit. So while it hurts that friends are going out of their way to find fault & gossip; I take to heart the truth of their criticism, knowing they are in my life to help me live up to my highest potential. I often live inside myself so I need the reflection, even if it’s tough love.

I am so grateful when folks dialogue with me on the content; or write to talk about their experience or insights. I am tremendously inspired by feedback & pointers to other sources or lectures. Thank you! This is what I had hoped this space would be – a community – the sacred space of the New Mysteries where the Social Sphere provides a Threshold for growth & change.

I remember when I was asked to write an article for Das Goetheanum about the ‘Great American Eclipse’. They were very demanding about the bibliography, which I found inhibiting. I have a lot to learn, I’m just not sure I want to make that my focus.

So I feel I am at a turning point, where I am called to work differently, not so much collecting & synthesizing out loud, but instead doing that work internally, letting the quotes stand on their own, & then writing more personally from my own experience. I am hoping that by not spending half the day researching –gathering – collating; I will have more time to actually work on that ‘novel’ I keep threatening to write.

I know that the Grail Quest I am on is a Hero’s Journey only I can take. Although I know that by sharing the journey, come hell or high water, I won’t be alone.

~from the throbbing open heart of hag

RUDOLF STEINER’S CALENDAR OF THE SOUL
translated (with added titles) by Roy Sadler
EASTERTIDE IV
The Beltane Gift
v4
I feel the essence of my being,
speaks senses’ feeling
that in the sunlit world unites
with shining floods of light;
it would enliven clear thought
with warmth
and marry Man and World.

‘Marry’ as a translation of ‘unite’ in this first full moon verse after Easter
is a recognition that in ancient times before our present calendar system
Beltane was a marriage festival at the Full Moon when the Sun was in Taurus.

25 April 2021 – “Speaking with the Stars” : Tonight is the Eve of the Full Sprouting Grass Moon.

POD (Poem Of the Day)

~She is the early light
& the purpose of dusk
Who Is
The song bird of The Logos renewed…
She will
Rattle the seeds of the sistrum
To Awaken
A brilliant moment in eternity: Today
I will
Lift Her veil…
~hag

Living into the Spheres of Cosmic Life and Cosmic Light: Easter, Ascension, Whitsun in the Calendar of the Soul  with Luigi Morelli, Hazel Archer and Geoff Norris – Zoom Host Frank Agrama

13 May 2021 Ascension Thursday 5- 6:30pm PT / 6-7:30 pm MT / 7 pm – 8:30 pm CT / 8-9:30 pm ET / 1 am – 2:30 am GMT / 2 am – 3:30 am CET

Join Zoom meeting: https://zoom.us/j/7052931041?pwd=TStPVnpFRzlwZ0NpRURBZDNyYnpBQT09 

Meeting ID: 705 293 1041 – Passcode: Ascension

Find your local number: https://zoom.us/u/a961qZZhF

Welcome – Frank Agrama

Verse #6 – Geoff Norris

Ascension: The Secret Teachings, The Elementals, & The Etheric Christ – Hazel Archer

Calendar of the Soul – Luigi Morelli

For those who are familiar with the Calendar of the Soul we could say that during spring and summer we follow the ascent of cosmic life, cosmic light, cosmic warmth and cosmic Word as gifts bestowed upon the human being by the cosmos. By being receptive to them we strengthen our connection to cosmos and Self.

We will briefly explore the dynamics of the year, then look at what qualities of soul we need to develop as we move into spring and summer, most particularly from Easter to Ascension and Whitsun. We will look at the verses of the calendar in conjunction with the artistic renditions of Anne Stockton and Karl König, drawn for each of the verses.

We will ask ourselves: How can we live into and grow from this time of the year? How can we deepen our inner relationship to the event of Ascension? What can we receive and what can we give?

Break-out Groups

Group Speech Work with Geoff Norris

“Angels, in the early morning
May be seen the Dews among,
Stooping — plucking — smiling — flying —
Do the Buds to them belong?”
~Emily Dickenson

Closing Thoughts – Hazel Archer

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Sangraal: A Pentecost Pilgrimage & Whitsun Festival with the Central Regional Council an experiential ‘Pageant’ written by Hazel Archer, taking us on a Quest from The Cauldron of Ceridwen, to The Holy Grail, & into The Sacred Vessel of the Sophia.

Join us on Whitsunday 23 May 2021, at 11 am PT / 12 noon MT / 1 pm – 2:30 pm CT / 2 pm ET / 8 pm CET

Join Zoom Meeting https://us02web.zoom.us/j/81181550712 Meeting ID: 811 8155 0712

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After working with Karma & Reincarnation for 3 years the CRC has chosen a new Theme: ‘The Mysteries of the Holy Grail, from Arthur and Parzival to Modern Initiation’

You are also invited to get the Book & Join us for study sessions through out the year as well. contact Alberto Loya aloyavaca@utexas.edu for more info.